Years ago, we celebrated our oldest son’s first birthday by holding a super party. I spent months 1 , cutting out handmade banners(横幅) and all kinds of decorations. I kept 2 my husband’s work as he built a cardboard city background. And I would lose 3 of my emotions when it didn’t progress exactly as I 4 . I didn’t know exactly why I stuck to 5 a party like that, but I felt this unspoken 6 . It was a feeling that my 7 as a mom and my love for my son were tied to how 8 this party was. Actually my son was turning one year old, and he had no idea what was going on. 9 , this clearly meant nothing to him. I tried to 10 other people and maybe even prove something to myself, only to find it made me 11 . On his birthday, I put on a ton of makeup(化妆品) to 12 my stress and smiled to our 13 even though I nearly broke down. It was the 14 party because of the memories attached to it! I ruined a 15 memory for me as a mother and decided to make a 16 . Last weekend, we celebrated my other son Hudson’s sixth birthday. He asked a Ninjago theme, so a week before the party, I searched Amazon(a shopping website) and 17 a banner and some basic party materials as he 18 . On that day, we ordered a big meal and used disposable(一次性的) plates to avoid hours of cleaning up. The party was 19 but perfect. As Hudson went to bed that night, he told me it was his best birthday ever. Parents’ 20 for kids does not lie in the complexity of celebrating kids’ birthday.